Woah...I didn't realize how long it has been since I last put something up here. Sorry for leaving you readers hanging. Allow me to update you though.
I did indeed graduate with my BS degree from Hampton University on May 13, 2012! And it was a glorious day to behold with my family and friends. Following that, I moved down to Florida where I studied for the NCLEX-RN exam and as of June 30th, I became a licensed RN in the state of Florida. Why Florida? Why did I not move back to my home state of New Jersey? Simple. Following my graduation, I was proposed to by my boyfriend of three-and-a-half years and moved down with him to start our new life together. Unfortunately, things didn't quite work out and I have recently moved back to my home in NJ.
What happened? Well, nothing too serious. For both of us, this was our first relationship, period: no previous relationship history. And we got serious fast, perhaps too fast for comfort. I have only told a few handful of people the details of everything. Though I should make sure to mention to you that I did not want to break up...but hey...you can't control someone else's feelings especially if they've changed a while back.We're actually still on good terms he and I--I think we may at least remain good friends. He even helped me with 20+ hour drive from Florida back to Jersey which wasn't as awkward as I had anticipated it would have been. We stopped at his parents on the way, where I managed to get a little bit of much needed closure as well; and it felt good to see that they didn't treat me any differently.
I can't deny the fact that I was an emotional wreck, for the couple of days after the break up--which was very recent--but you know, I'm taking it day-by-day. And now that I'm home, everything seems to be a lot better (Probably because I'm surrounded by my friends and family now). I never really imagined myself, you know, back in Jersey--and liking it for the most part. Do I see myself staying here for the rest of my life? Hopefully not.
But there are a lot of things that really need to be done right now while I'm here. For starters, I need to get my career started. Florida was nice and all, but where I was, there seemed to be no end to my unemployment even after I obtained my RN license. So for three months and then some, I had been sitting around the house like a bum hoping and praying for a call for a job offer...nothing came up though. And I just had...no friends. I guess that makes the whole adjustment process a whole lot worse. Now that I'm home, I can get my social life back, rekindle some friendships, and make some new friends. I also need to get myself established financially as well--what with school loans and all. Maybe, I'll even be able to get myself a newer car as well. My little '94 Honda and I had a good run, but she's been running kinda low for some time now; afterwhich, I will proceed to find a way to move out of my parents' house.
Well, you seem to have things planned out and handling it well, don't you Ms. Sims?
Why, yes. Yes, I do. I can't afford to sit around for months in an endless fit of depression. He's moved on already (as he has already admitted to me) because he came to term with his feelings a long time ago. I know I may still have some low moments every now and then...but I think I'm over the initial hurt and I'm done crying about it. I need to pick myself up and start anew, get to know myself as a young adult--we both do.
Okay. I'm done rambling to you all now. I'll try not to wait so long between posts anymore.
Peace and Love.
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